Let's go back to late Thursday evening when Lilly seemed under the weather. We slept with her that evening and were woken up in the middle of the night from her night terrors. She was breathing heavy and she was looking at me eyes wide open. (She was sleeping with her eyes open). She then said "Take my water". When I reached for her water bottle she shook with fear and screamed. Brian ran to turn on the light and Lilly was crying out for me to hold her. She turned towards me and then shrank back from me screaming that there were ladybugs all over me. She pointed them out - apparently the ladybugs were crawling on my arms, my face and my neck. It was a sleepless night.
Lilly ran a high temperature all day Friday and on Saturday Lilly and I stayed home from Aunt Michael's graduation ceremony. We ventured to the graduation party where Lilly threw up and she rested (aka barely moved and was completely lethargic) the rest of the afternoon.
We asked Lilly if she wanted to still dance in the recital and she said yes. She slept the entire car ride to the auditorium but woke right up and excitedly put on her costume and make-up when she saw the other dancers getting ready. We practiced some of the steps and lined up backstage. She played with her friends and watched the first two performances intently. So we got on stage- CENTERSTAGE - I put Lilly down. A second before the lights turned on she asked me to pick her up and that's where she stayed for our class's entire performance. We couldn't exit the stage since the lights were on and we were positioned in the middle. Argh. She was the only dancer to be held the entire time. We left the recital immediately once we got off stage.
I know Lilly didn't perform because she was sick and that she's only 2, but I can't help but feel disappointed. Disappointed that she was sick and that she didn't perform, because I know that she knows the routine and that she will dance and sing along with the music when she's her lively self. Maybe it's the Tiger Mom in me, but I don't think it's wrong to expect my child to be the best or do her best. We practiced and practiced and practiced and did NOT perform. If you don't know what a Tiger Mom is, read this article in the Wall Street Journal by Amy Chua.
We did have a dress rehearsal earlier in the week, so here are some pics of Lilly in her costume.
1 comment:
You're no Tiger mother (and that's a GOOD thing!)...you let Lilly dance, have play dates and be happy!! When I saw Chua's interview several months ago, she's so strict and hardcore, her girls seem so miserable - that's probably why her younger one rebelled...for a little while anyway. Her girls could never be in school plays, dance or play with any other kids.
Lilly looks too cute in her costume!! I understand how you feel though, but there will be plenty more recitals I'm sure...where she'll be on stage and you'll be cheering her on either behind the curtain or in the front row, right "Thaiger" mom?? :)
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